Fine, breakable lines

Just one sentence written on a random post it note and shoved in a box where it will stay with a pile of unread letters.
"It would be easier to forget you, but I can't, and I'm scared that I will."

If you have been there before you know how difficult it can be to ride that line of remembering and forgetting. There is also a referance to that same feeling, that same sentence in "My Dearest Rose." Iris struggles to ride the line because if she were to fall off of either side it could be dangerous and disasterous. An impending trainwreck.
You desperately try to remember and cling to the things that mattered the most, and even the things that didn't hold any meaning at all. You imagine every smile, every sound, every word, every hug, kiss, and the way that that someone would hold your hand, and even the way they would walk and smell. These memories terrify you to the core. It's called remembering too much. But another thought that paralyzes you and causes your heart to hammer against your thin skin in the middle of the night is that maybe if you don't brand it into your memory...you will forget...everything. Every smile, memory, sound, laugh, hug, kiss, taste, and smell. So you balance on the tightrope, high in the air, just waiting. For what? I don't know exactly. Something that may or may not ever happen. 
I will never really be able to tell some of my deepest, most hidden, sensitive, and forbidden feelings. It may be because I simply can't or that there's just no way to verbalize it. If you can't verbalize things the right way, there's really no use in saying it in the first place. And just like Iris maybe I can ride that fragile line until the wire gives, but also just like her at least I have one person that understands. Maybe not fully, but can anyone ever really imagine the unimaginable unless they've been in your place and have walked down the road you have walked?

"It was really hard to do what I've been doing the past four years. Trying to remember, trying to forget. Balancing myself so I don't fall too far off of one side or the other." Iris