Infinite and Real

We all know that it happens. We think too much about our current problems for the day. We concentrate too much on the petty arguments and impasses to realize for just a moment how much the person that you are arguing with means to you. And then we sit back and daydream and think and turn it around in ours heads everything that we would like to say to that person. We think about every little detail that drives us crazy in the best and most spectacular ways. But we never say it. We never express it. We say that we love but we never fully commit to the feeling. We never allow ourselves to be consumed in it, taking life and absorbing into our weak bones and brittle parts. But we need to. We need to allow ourselves to crack open so a little bit of light can come in and heal and mend. So we can find out what we are really missing and experience it in all it's strength and beauty for the first time. I want to tell the people that I love, that I love them. I want to tell them how beautiful they are to me and how much they make my life really count. The stars could cease, the air turn to dust, and gravity lift but they will always, still, anchor my feet to the ground. They are my stars, my moon, my pathway around the sky and through this life. They are my breath of stardust, life, and magic and the gravity that keeps me firmly rooted.

And I want the same. Don't wait for me to go. Don't wait for our hands to part. I want to know how you feel now when it really matters. When this moment is all that counts. Don't wait to utter it into the air or scream it to a wall. Take hold. We are in this together. We are tied and bonded. We are infinite and real. For now? For eternity? For our passage through space and time. Tell me you love me. And tell me that you have felt my own love to your very core all along the way. Tell me that this is all what it seems and that we are alive and full of promises and color. I want to hear it now. Don't wait for it all to end. Because I love you. You matter. It matters. And we're here. Tell me that this is all what it seems and that we are alive and full of promises and color. I want to hear it now. Don't wait for it all to end. Because I love you. You matter. It matters. And we're here.

We are connected. We are real. We are a masterpiece. We are in this moment. And I love you.

Want To Possibly Win A Signed Copy Of Sparks Ignite?!

Alright, friends! Some of you may know that my lucky favorite number is the number 21. So using my favorite number we are going to get more likes and loves for The Dreamcatchers Saga and these amazing and loveable characters we've grown so attached to! And one of you will be rewarded! Once we reach 221 likes for this page every one who has liked this page will be entered into a RANDOM drawing for a free SIGNED copy of Sparks Ignite (The Dreamcatchers Saga #2) !!! If we exceed that amount (like I know we can do) the winner can expect an extra gift of appreciation with their copy of the book! So like and share and tell everyone that you know! Ready?! Get started! Click below!
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More Pictures!

Below are some more pictures from the reading and signing and also a layout of some artwork drawn by my talented friend, Mendy Williams!

Just A Couple Of Pictures!

Here is just a couple of pictures that I was able to take before the reading yesterday. They are of the beautiful studio that I was blessed enough to hold the reading in. Peaceful Heart Yoga in Franklin Indiana! It was so pretty!

Feb 7 2015 Book Reading and Signing!

Here is a link for today's book reading and signing for Awakening Iris and Sparks Ignite at Peaceful Heart Yoga! My next reading and signing will be April 11 2015 in Nashville Indiana! Get a copy of Awakening Iris and Sparks Ignite today at cressenbooks.com!

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WCNcLS-SaxA

Thank you to all who came to celebrate, have fun, drink some tea, eat some cupcakes, and spend this enormously blessed day with me!

Beautifully Written

We live changing a little more by each day that passes. We grow, becoming more independent as needy people are often laughed at and shaken loose like a used up toy. We call ourselves experienced. We say that we are fine and train our hearts, minds, and souls to doing everything on their own. Because we will never need anything from anybody. We will never require anything from anybody. We think we are above the people that show any weakness or dependency on another soul. We've closed ourselves off and don't even know that we are the ones suffering. We are suffering because we don't know the feeling of what such intense love can do. We don't know how it feels to banish any thoughts of losing a particular someone because you just can't fathom that kind of tragedy. We think we grow because of the lack of this. This love, this dependency, this devotion. But in reality, we grow with the strength of it.

And we don't find out and swear it won't happen until does happen. Maybe we told ourselves that it wouldn't to get us away from the disappointment that it hasn't yet. Oh, but when it happens, it's like a bomb just exploded in your hands, and everything that you were, and everything that you believed in is gone. Now, all of a sudden you are someone who compromises. You are someone who trusts, even when you don't really want to. You are now the someone that is dependent on the person that just stole your heart. You are the person that you once laughed at. You don't know how this happened. You just know that it did and now you will never be the same. There is no reversing this. You don't know how you will walk out this situation. But you do know that the person you once were is gone.

A new person has emerged with a new and satisfied light in your eyes. Sometimes you are unrecognizable in the the mirror, but you know it's a better you. And you now know the feeling. The feelings of irrevocable, life altering, love. You know how it feels to banish all thoughts of your life without them, because life without them is simply impossible. You are not built to live through that kind impossibility. You morph and change, yet again, not for the first time, and not for the last. But still in every other way permanently. Isn't it simply amazing what effect another human being can have on someone? Flesh, blood, sinew, and one lovely heartbeat, and you simply melt away. And if being dependent is what it requires, so be it. Because we never know how our stories will end, but we do know that with that kind of love, gratitude, and adoration, our story will end up being one beautifully written book.



 

The Good Will Rise

After several discussions today one really weighs on my mind more than others. It's about relationships. I've been going through some type of new revelations with particular relationships lately that I can't quite understand and there are some I have to cut my ties too, for my own benefit.

I don't exactly know where to start, except to say that I'm at a point in my life where I can finally put things in perspective. I know who is important and who is not. I know who to trust and who to be leery of.  I know what to say and what not to say and to who. And I know that I'm not desperate enough to be disposable or just "convenient" to anyone.

I have been blessed enough in my life to see and feel what it is to be loved. To be protected. To be somebody's first choice and way of life. I have also been blessed enough to know what friendship really is. What love really is. 

First...let's get this straight. There are so many different types of relationships that you will have in life. There are relationships between parent and child, and husband and wife. There are family relationships. And there are friend relationships. A relative relationship and relationship with a friend is what I will from here on out be referring to.

Anyways, having been blessed to know what friendship really is, I know that what it is NOT is "give me this, give me that, can I USE you for this, can I USE you for that? I will take this and will give you nothing. You are only convenient." No! Friendship is this. "Let me help you with this, let me give you that. And I don't need anything  from you, but I like the thought that if I did you wouldn't mind. Thank you." Know the difference.

People as of late, I noticed have been confusing friendship with convenience. I have had this problem with someone that can't even be bothered to say "hello" and, just talking to my sister and husband,I had said that I won't be someone's second choice. I won't let that kind of negativity into my life, when my life already has so much happiness anyway. People all have a reason to enter anothers life. Many you won't know right away. It may take years before you know the reason. But it is for a reason. And sometimes it's only temporary. We don't question it. It is what it is.

There are also the people that like to take and take and never give you anything. They just take the very best of you until they bleed you emotionally dry. Sometimes burned bridges cannot be rebuilt. Sometimes people forgive, but they never forget. Sometimes when you shove so many people away they really just won't be there when you need them. People cannot seriously expect to do so many people wrong, and lie, and cheat, and steal so many times and the people you keep burning and killing and bleeding dry will still be there. There may be nothing left of them to take. Maybe they are just hanging on too. And this is what you have done to them. This is what it looks like after the smoke has cleared. This is what it looks like after the fall.

I still believe there is good in this world. And I still believe that the good will always win. Always. And the good side is the side that I will always fight on. But I can't lie. The bad has left such a bitter taste in my mouth. And even sometimes the sweet turns sour. I want someone honest to say something worth while. I want to hear something true from someone. Confirm what I believe in and show me that the good will rise.